I don't like warm weather...I prefer cold, that's all. |D
anyways, I have some stuffs to talk about n such...if I can remember T.T'
.....OKAY! I've got it XD
First off, I wanted to let you all know that I'm opening up with my teachers more and together, we're finding solutions for helping me learn and memorize things more easily ^^ I found out I'm VERY visual-spatial, I can't even understand many things I read or hear XP It's gotta be something for me to see, a drawing, a picture...and as for hearing, it's gotta be music to memorize stuff! I won't go to the other 3 senses, those aren't really required for learning...XDD I also basically have trouble with writing...I have bad grammar sometimes, and I'm horrible at writing sentences 'cause I usually seem to make them really long with lots of commas Oo like you're probably seeing and gonna see here...|D
so anyways, I'm finally improving in my studies...improvements:
Algebra - mostly A's and B's, though I used to be horrible at the subject...even pre-algebra XP What I'm learning now isn't really that tough for me...and from my research, visual-spatial people recognize patterns very well...the lesson I've been doing has a pattern kinda thing, so it's easy to memorize! X33
English - My teacher for now is helping me write papers, and I'm learning a few grammar rules I hope to remember. She's letting me type as many of my paper ideas, doesn't matter if they're organized, and she'll help type them into an essay for me. ^^ She understands I can't write papers well, but my drawings are many times better...so she also lets me explain to her what things I see for my paper and she'll type them in |3
Latin - I'm currently helping draw pictures to go with each Latin word on these flash cards for my Latin teacher. it's fun, and I'm starting to memorize the vocab better X3 I still don't like Latin that much though...XD
Government - I used to actually get F's D's, which was starting to scare me O_O' Then just this week, it totally wasn't "St. Patrick's luck", I got a freakin awesome B 2 days ago 'cause my teacher told me to try picture notes...and it helps a bunch!! what's even more awesome is that I finally am getting B's in Government, and when my mom heard about the grade improvement on the same day (St. Patrick's Day/my mom's b-day XP) she was really proud of me and let that good grade be her birthday present =3
Now, for the exciting news....read on through this whole thing~!
All this week, I was feeling VERY depressed...like, to the point I wanted to eat alone during lunch at school n' such...I also didn't hug many of my friends as much as usual...why? well, my granddad has been told he may only live another month, and it hurts me like a large sword piercing through my body ><' I'm praying though, and praying that if my granddad has to go Home, I'll let him and hope he goes to the place where there's no more suffering...Heaven...with God and Jesus...^^
It still hurts, but not too much anymore...
I was depressed to a point I finally found time to myself at 4am a few days ago when I woke up randomly then was deciding to go back to sleep. I prayed for a while, asking for comfort, and then that prayer was more of a conversation. I decided to talk to God about my current problems and started asking for solutions, help, and strength. Talking about it was hurting worse, and I finally decided to let my tears out before the depression would take over. After a few minutes, I ended the prayer with the usual "Amen" and tried to calm down and go back to sleep by listening to my Christian radio and thinking about the Lord. I thought about how Heaven would be like, and how awesome it would be to see God and Christ one day. Then I thought, "granddad is actually....lucky XD I'll miss him though..." T.T'
So after that, I suddenly felt this wind in my hear along with this sudden voice....from outside, it wasn't in my head like it usually would be! O.O There was no one in my room....as I said, I found time to myself and who in the world would come to my room while it was near 5am anyways? XDD Now, the voice I heard, it said my name...that was all the voice said, but it wasn't without any feeling. My chest was sore for a while, that voice was pretty strong. It was also gentle, sympathetic, soft, and peaceful. X3 I was surprised the time I heard it though, and looked around my room wondering where the voice came from XD so I had a sudden thought in my head, that I probably couldn't see the person in my room because they must've been an invisible presence, possibly God! Then I talked to my art teacher about it, and she said it could've also been an angel. Either way, that one word, my name (Sarah), was powerful and meaningful, that I was called to be a child of God. X33! That got me excited, and I'll be praying a bit today and follow some prayer advice from my art teacher. She said that this time, I should pray for the Holy Spirit to enter me and fill me up, to keep me peaceful and joyous at all times We still get sad, but accepting the Holy Spirit into me will keep the darkness out that would usually easily enter me. I get angry easily for some reason, and I'm gonna pray for that to end...I'm glad I'm calm while angry, but....I still hate getting mad then there's depression, which I wanna avoid for good health. So I'm gonna make a pretty big step soon, and it's super exciting!